i'm near tears and feel like crying...again...but i can't cry i promised to never cry again and that i would be strong.......but the pain within is destroying me...for those who don't know yet evan dumped me broke my heart...and now i want the hell out of here cause i can't stand seeing his face or his friends!>.< and i lost my purpose in life and i feel worthless and good for nothing...i forced myself to say yes when jesse asked me out and sometimes yes he makes me smile but i keep thinking about evan then i get depressed again(jesse is an internet bf so he doesn't know i'm depressed sometimes and i feel bad and i can't bring myself to try dating in real yet..i'm not ready ) and again idk what to do...my thoughts about death r endless...i feel like good bye(im sorry) by then i turnned seven...and i don't think i'll ever get over him plus i have problems with my family...again!...arrgh i can't take it.........and idk what to do!!!.....